33 Things I Have Learned About Grief

11     White rages – could be aimed at anyone or anything and have been
22   Utter weariness / exhaustion

33    Not being able to cry

44   Crying at ‘bad times’ eg while driving on the motorway

55   Horrendous stomach pain like childbirth

66    Not being able to poo

77   Cold and sore throat

88   Watching The Chase because my Mum did

99   Watching every episode of Extras because why not?

110 Eating cheesecake

111 Sleeping a lot

112 Not sleeping

113 Feeling very hungry

114 Not wanting to eat

115 Feeling heavy and slow

116 Feeling nothing

117 Being glad of a distraction

118 Being irritated by being asked how I feel

119 Being irritated by not being asked how I feel

220 Being irritated by unsolicited advice

221 Amazed by the callousness of bereavement professionals

222 Amazed by the stupidity of others eg ‘Done anything nice this week?’

223 Being even more stroppy than usual

224 Throwing out half my clothes on a whim

225 Wanting to throw out some people as well

226 Making mad, unrealistic plans

227 Being amazingly clear-headed

228 Going to Specsavers appointment in the wrong week

229 Diarising the wrong day for hair appointment

330 Not even knowing the Winter Olympics are on

331 Wanting to be alone

332 Not wanting to be left alone

333 Time passing very slowly